A Mini Waiting Game

Anyone remember two or so posts ago when I wrote about talking with a friend about an acquaintance thinking about placing her baby for adoption? Well my friend {P} talked to this woman {C} about it and she said that she will be thinking about it. Apparently she is/was going to meet with two other couples but she told {P} that she might feel more comfortable giving her child to someone that she knows.

We might be looking at a Private Placement Adoption here.

I'm waiting for her to contact me regarding an interview to see if she thinks it will work.

I'm still trying not to get my hopes up. There seem to be so many reasons that I can think of why she wouldn't want me.

We are friends on Facebook...and seeing me fill the page with the images of a child that once was hers...well...I don't think I could do it. Right there would be my reason for not giving me that child.

I am getting my hopes up a little. But isn't that the first step to love? Putting my heart on the line? I mean, if {C} says no, I will be sad but at this point it is just kind of a pipe dream. But if if if she says yes, I'm already one step closer to loving this little girl.

It is a hard game...infertility. Something that sounded so easy in theory...making a baby...turns into something so complicated.

In other news...it has been 93 days since my last cycle. I'm going to take some Prov-era once I get the courage to POAS (you know...just in case).