BFNegative-Month 3

It is technically been 4 months now since we started trying to get pregnant.

The OB/GYN said that I can't get on Clomid until we have been trying to at least a year to get pregnant. I guess I should be patient and realize that people have been trying 2,3,4,5 years to get pregnant and 4 months is nothing.

Sometimes I just get so negative. I haven't had a period on my own for about 2 years and I've never had a regular cycle. I feel like waiting for that year mark is hopeless because I might not ovulate for 7 months.

I'm on some new medication though, Glucophage. Hopefully this will normalize my ovulation. But it could be months before I see results...and I am so impatient with this whole thing.

Lately, I have been trying to have fun with my husband and friends. I don't have to be miserable waiting and I think that that is the key to getting through this.

All of the Above

When I was at the OB/GYN's last week she took the time to update my file since my previous doctor didn't leave that many notes on me.

She asked some questions about how long AF has been coming erratically and how long my husband and I have been trying to conceive. I found this conversation particularly enjoyable.

Doctor: Do you have any coarse black hair on you face, nipples, or abdomen?

Phoebe: Yes,

Doctor: Which ones?

Phoebe: Ummm...all of the above?

It is for sure one of my least favorite side effects of the extra testosterone in my system. At least I have a great man who loves me right?

Father's Day, Not For YOU!!

My husband right now is on a business trip. I haven't called him Oscar in awhile but I guess I can start doing that again too.

This would have been fine with me IF 1) They had let us know more than two days in advance that he was definitely going. 2) Our anniversary wasn't at the end of this week 3) They didn't have him leave on Father's Day

We are pretty sure that he was asked to go on this trip because most of the other senior co-workers all have children. They think that Oscar can just pick up and leave whenever because he only has a wife at home.

Instead of spending Father's Day even trying to make him a father (if you catch my drift) he just had enough time to finish packing and hop into the car.

I'm glad though that he has a job that he is so good at and they trust him to be the one to travel and work with other teams on stuff. I only wish that they would think about the feelings of others when they arrange flight plans. And I guess that it will make our anniversary really sweet because I will appreciate the time that I get to spend with him.

(Picture of us at a fair that was in town for Memorial Day this year.)

A New OB/GYN

I know that I have been gone for awhile. I have actually been avoiding this blog like the plague. I was getting to involved with it and other people's blogs and all of the bad news was getting to me.

I thought to myself in my innocence, "Maybe I do need to just relax and try and it will happen." Nope.

Another month. Another negative. Another round of progesterone to get me to HAVE a period.

I got a new OB/GYN. My other one moved away and I'm glad that she did because she was awful at helping me. I got a blood test awhile ago done to make sure that it was PCOS and a week later I called in because she hasn't called me the following Monday like she said she would. I asked about the results and the person on the phone told me that the OB/GYN hadn't looked at them yet. A week later I called back again and the girl just told me that everything was normal.

This month I went back to get a yearly exam...yeah for stirrups. I was asking my doctor about PCOS and she told me that I for sure had it because my exam actually showed that I had really elevated testosterone. She also told me that for my age and weight there was no reason for my cholesterol on a fasting test to show as high as they did. She was worried that in a couple years I might already get diabetes.

THANKS FOR THE HEADS UP OLD OB/GYN!!